Today is the Day

Today is the day.  The day I must conquer my fear and pick up a rolling pin.  That's right, baking day!  It's a very serious matter, and I am quite intimidated.  I promised my girl a layered fondant covered cake.  She doesn't want just a plain straight up and down cake, she wants it "wedding style!"  I agreed.  I'm not sure what was running thru my mind at that time besides that I wanted to make her happy.  The thing is her birthday party is tomorrow night.  She just turned ten so I let her invite 10 people.  The cake I am making I swear could feed 150!  The bottom tier is 12!  That's 2 twelve" cakes, followed by 2 9" cakes followed by 2 6" cakes!  I have so far made 3 cake mixes worth of cake and I am not done.  I will have to start another one after we go to her talent show!  Today I bought 2 lbs of butter and 2 2 lb bags of powdered sugar just for the buttercream!  I hope I have enough....So today I am baking and the smell of chocolate is wafting thru my house.  I'm a little dizzy from the sugar high off of the aroma alone!  Wish me luck people.

Just thought I would come and add a few pics of the finished cake.  It was a lot of work, but she was really happy with it, so thats all that matters.  I will share one thing I learned...it's not as easy at it looks on tv!!!!

My Choice

Wow, has it been 10 years?  At this time 10 years ago I was in labor with my girl Meg.  Every year on her birthday I think back to how scared I was, the choice I made and how glad I am that I did.  Those who really know me, know the story.  But for those that don't know me quite so well, its a story I can tell again.  In my late teens early 20s I had some problems involving my heart.  The cardiologist that diagnosed me told me I would never have kids.  He felt that my heart wasn't strong enough to live thru pregnancy, labor, etc.  At that time I was young and excepted that.  I hadn't been with Joel very long, but I knew that having a family someday was really important to him.  I thought it was only fair to him to break up.  He disagreed and I am so glad that he did.  We got married knowing that we would never have kids.  Just me and him.  Imagine my surprise when I found out I was pregnant, I was on birth control.  I guess 99% effective, really isn't 100%!  I immediately went to see my cardiologist and he told me again that having a child was not a good idea for me and that I should end the pregnancy.  End it, can you imagine?  So casually he wanted me to end the life that had already begun in me.  I was scared, but there was no  question in my mind that that was not going to happen.  I didn't plan this, but it wasn't my child's fault.  With help from my OB I found a new cardiologist who was willing to work me thru it.  It was very scary.  Most pregnancies are filled with excitement and happiness, mine was not.  I was scared to death every day that I would never see my baby grow up.  But, here I am 10 years later.  I have the most amazing kid on the planet!  She is so much smarter than I ever was.  She is beautiful in every way.  I thank God today for her life and my own.  Some days I forget what I went thru to have her, I forget what a gift she is when homework isn't being done or her room is a mess, so caught up in the mundane details of everyday life.  That's the great thing about birthdays though, they help us remember.  So here is to my girl Meghan Elizabeth, the greatest kid ever!