812 Miles to Disney that is. I tend to link all things in my life back to Disney. I can't get enough of that place, it is after all the happiest place on earth! I scrap, sew, bake and craft all sorts of things.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Big Decision
So sometimes my life feels out of control. How did I get here? Yesterday was one of those days. I forgot to ask off for my daughter's talent show, so after dropping off my son at school, I went to work to see if it was too late to add that date to my schedule so I would be off. Meanwhile, my phone is blowing up...I'm trying to ignore it. I pick up a few things for a project and came home. I checked my messages from the calls I was ignoring...my mom...yelling at me for not answering the phone. I call her back...she doesn't answer! I picked up my daughter's keyboard and took it to school for talent show rehearsal. I stayed and ate lunch with her and then things got a little more crazy. My daughter has a problem...its called a Bully. She was there...in the lunch room..bullying. I confront her teacher about said bullying, I am told its just girl drama, no big thing. What I just saw, was a BIG THING. BULLYING is a BIG thing. Don't try to lessen it by calling it girl drama! I'm making no headway with the teacher, but I have another kid to tend to so I have to leave things unresolved, not happy. On my way out of the school to tend to my other kid I get stopped. Now, due to the issues with my big decision, I have to be vague for now...I may revisit this topic later. Lets just say I don't appreciate being told that I should reevaluate "my career" to do whats best for my family by someone who is not even a friend. They obviously don't know me at all since they used the word "career." I don't have a career, I have a job. I like my job, it pays the bills it needs to and I get a discount! Who wouldn't want that, a discount at a scrapbook store? Scrapbooking is a huge part of my life, its my thing. Its what I do to relax, besides the fact that when I'm old and gray and can't remember anything, I have these books to remind me of what my life is! But, I digress. I leave the school angry, but I don't have time for that...I'm late for my other kid. I get there just within the time frame before you have to start paying $5 a minute, thank goodness! I make it home, make lunch for my kid, I walk into the laundry room to get things moving and I lose it. I see the piles, more like mountains and I lose it. I cried, and I cried and then I cried some more. Some kid is bullying my daughter and I can't seem to stop it, and some other mom is bullying me and I can't seem to stop it. I have laundry like there is no tomorrow and there aren't enough hours in the day to get my to-do list done. I called my friend to cry some more and have a sympathetic ear, and then the decision is made. I thought I would feel regret or horrible for the way my decision is going to affect my daughter, but I don't. I feel relieved. Did my bully win? Maybe, but I cut her out of my life with my decision. I stopped it. For 5 years this mom has been pushing me around and using me, I have stood and taken it for the sake of our daughters. But, now I'm not going to stand and take it anymore. My daughter will be better off for having a less stressed mom. Sometimes the best thing we can do is walk away. I took care of my bully, now how am I going to get rid of my daughters? Suggestions welcome!
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